Today I saw this group of soldiers every where I looked ..Men and Woman in uniforms.(staying at the place I work)
From a far I pretend it was your face..


Up close my eyes were watery,and tears soon fell down.




I wanted to go up to them and say thank you,but I couldn't get the guts..These men and woman leave there families and friends and there homes to fight this war. Some die for are safety,and the safety of there brothers and sisters in arms.

Today I looked at this crowd and thought I saw your face,and then you would soon run up to me and yell surprise I'm in Vegas! Then Hug me and tell me you've missed me.

But as a single tear fell from my eye I knew it wasn't true..
I was always so proud of you,and I'm so proud of all my other friends in Military.But I'm afraid to lose anyone else..

February 24, is less then a month away.. Seeing the soldiers today reminded me that its been almost a year..Almost a year we lost someone as special as you,We lost R HOMETOWN HERO.

Not a day goes by I don't hear a song and think Schuyler would love this,or a song that just plain old reminds me of you. We always talked and I miss that. I know I'm not the only one..

I love you Schuyler ALWAYS have ALWAYS will..never forgotten

Changes..

When you think things are getting better,Life throws you a curve ball.
I woke up this morning and all I could think of is how things have changed,how much Ive changed.
Im 26 now,and in the past 6 years Ive lost my best friend(my child hood friend)Abby Dana,Ive lost my Grandpa John,and a man I loved so much,who was a great Soldier as well Sgt.Schuyler Patch.





The other day I was talking with My grandma Carol she told me that Grandpa Don(the only grandpa I have left) was going into a heart surgery, he would then have 6 bipasses and a valve to his heart fixed,since then he made it through the surgiers but in the last few days he has been my grandpa..Stubborn. He wont listen to the docters or nurses and because of that he is still in ICU.
Im glad that he is getting better just wish it was going faster so I wouldnt be so worried about him...I love you Grandpa Don.


I wanted this new year(2010) to be a GREAT year,but my past keeps comming back. Even though things have really changed for me since 2003,with the whole moving to vegas and losing the people I have loved,I always thought one day Id get back there..Id get back to me..The happy girl who smiled through everything in life. I never thought that after April 22,2004,happened because that is when everything went down hill,I lost some of the most important people in my life after that..


I try really hard not to dwell on all the bad stuff thats happened since then,I try my best to live the life I know they would want me to.But some days hurt more then others.

Then I think of all the good things that have happened since then, the Birth's of my best friends babies,who I love as if they were my neices &nephews...(there not related by blood but my best friends r close to me as my own sister)(so there related lol)

I have been single for about 4 years,and Im one of those people who is very set in her ways,my past relationships have swept me off my feet,and kept me wanting him to come back,and when he would I didnt know how to let go,but this new year I promised myself&my heart that It would finnally be over.And thus far Ive done well.

I just hope the rest of 2010 is better then the last 2 years...Thanks for Reading!