Its been two years since my world has been upside down. I lost my grandpa John, Today 2 years ago.That was hard.I was always so close with him,he was easy to get along with and a man you wouldn't cross when he was angry.He was in the Army and he was so very proud of that.
He had a heart of Gold,and a Spirt that kept him alive for 74 almost 75 years.
He had a heart of Gold,and a Spirt that kept him alive for 74 almost 75 years.
Its been hell for the last 2 years and this was only the beginning....
I noticed in the first year that I wasn't me,and in that first year I wasn't truly been me,im more irritated faster,I'm more impatient,and im more unhappy.
I went through a hard time over the last 2 year's and in the first year ,Depression I fell into.
I was in pain,my heart was breaking I had Lost one of the most important people in my life,someone I grew up wanting to be like because he was so Strong and Loving,He was my Grandpa,and I loved him so very much..I still do.
He spoiled me Rotten,I was his first granddaughter and first grandchild,so I was spoiled..It helped I was there alot as well. Later on after he got sick I wasn't around as much,when I moved to Las Vegas I didn't know how I could leave and not know if my grandpa would make it a year,but he made it 7more years then anyone thought possible actually he made it 13 years longer then the doctors had given him.He wanted to spend time with his wife(my grandma Betty) he wanted to watch his 16 grandchildren grow up,I believe when his time was up on that fatal day October 19,2008 he was ready to go knowing we would all take care of Grandma and he would watch from Heaven I truly believe that. Not saying that in the begging I believed any of it, I was angry with God and with the doctors how come they couldn't save him why did god not let me go say goodbye why why before he turned 75 WHY?
Death is unreal and I don't understand it.Why have birth if in the end sooner or later before your time or way after you think you should be gone why is there DEATH? a question for the ages...
He spoiled me Rotten,I was his first granddaughter and first grandchild,so I was spoiled..It helped I was there alot as well. Later on after he got sick I wasn't around as much,when I moved to Las Vegas I didn't know how I could leave and not know if my grandpa would make it a year,but he made it 7more years then anyone thought possible actually he made it 13 years longer then the doctors had given him.He wanted to spend time with his wife(my grandma Betty) he wanted to watch his 16 grandchildren grow up,I believe when his time was up on that fatal day October 19,2008 he was ready to go knowing we would all take care of Grandma and he would watch from Heaven I truly believe that. Not saying that in the begging I believed any of it, I was angry with God and with the doctors how come they couldn't save him why did god not let me go say goodbye why why before he turned 75 WHY?
Death is unreal and I don't understand it.Why have birth if in the end sooner or later before your time or way after you think you should be gone why is there DEATH? a question for the ages...
I know I'll see him again ..Someday
But for now I miss him all the time,I miss his hugs,I miss him saying he loved me,I miss me sitting on his lap and him teasing me.
I even miss him taking his false teeth out and scaring me with them.But most of all Papa I MISS U and I LOVE YOU
So for now Goodbye papa I love you and Ill see you again..One day
