Sunday, July 15, 2018

Last Ride

July 14,2018



Its been almost 10 years, well for this ride it has been 10 Years
Schuyler was brought home almost 10 years ago,
So on this day we marked our 10th annual and final ride,





It was peaceful,but sad,Memories flooded my memory of the day we laid him to rest, as we drove out of town going to where they picked him up, the flags blew,my heart was pounding,The flash back of that day, coming into town with my grandparents who picked me up at the airport,the ride into town , as I sat in uncomfortable silence, the moment I met mom and we walked to the park,.. it all came back.
As we were at the airport I was fine, I was talking and looking around at all the Bikes,the cars.. everything..
As my sister did her best to talk to me all the way back to town, The Flag and Fire truck in a small town did me in, It was so kind,and a amazing to see the people in town, as we got closer to town, My heart started back up again I was reliving his funeral line.. the day we left the school the parade of cars we were in , the people on the side of the road, Our little town was coming together ONE more time for our Fallen Solider..



We rode into town, and my sister talked, I heard nothing but the sound of the wind as I rolled the car windows down, I heard my heart thumping as if it was about to beat its last..
I sat quite,and as tears started to roll down my face,I felt the pain all over again..


I took pics and tried my best to wipe the tears, Andrea kept talking, then I said I didn't know this was gonna hit me this hard,she said I know..

Then I stopped and said its funny cause, Its been 10 years in February, and I still have my moments ,I relive the moments I got to share with him, and I even laugh at the silly stuff he used to tell me.



So I told her a memory of when he told me and her at one point that he wasnt scared of our dad he was more afraid of the Nyert Girls ,, and we laughed.
She shared a memory or two of him and I said I knew today would be hard, But I thought I would make it through. she just looked at me, and said I know.. so I said I thought It would be worse I thought I would be uncontrollable , But I know deep down he wouldn't want that .

As I did my best as we made it to the cemetery a place I have been to so many times, I watched people show up, I watched people gather around his gravesite, and I smiled as I talked to a friend of his and a old friend of mine.

His sister talked,and she said so many nice things, as I watched his family, and as I listened to people talk like his best friend Jarrod who I had gotten to know because of this painful heartache we shared of losi
ng someone we loved so much, I remember meeting him the day I went to Schuylers dads house, he came up to me and hugged me as If he knew me, and in a way he did. He let my mom introduced me, and he said I know who she is ,Schuyler talked about her all the time, he loved her.. Ill Never forget those words, and Ill forever be thankful that he told me those words.
As I listened I knew Schuyler was listening too, he was watching us , when we rode that final ride home, a place that had so many memories for his family and friends, he kept the rain at bay so we could do this ONE LAST TIME.. He was smiling as they went and celebrated his Life .. and probly laughing at me saying you couldn't get out of work lol..
His name isn't a name I often speak of ,because some days it Just hurts..But he isn't just a distant memory,hes taken a piece of my heart when he left,He may not be thought of every tiny second, but hes thought about.. My life would be different if he was here, but there's to many what if's in that sentence. 

As the day ended for me at the cemetery and off to work i went as everyone else went and Celebrated the end of the RIDE,..
I left knowing nothing changed, his memory forever well be with all that Loves Him.
He well Never be forgotten, and Ill always LOVE him.





To My Friend,To My Soldier, To My Hero.. To the Man I Love, to the Man I Miss More then Words can say I Love you Schuyler ...
Rest in Peace my Love.. For you well Never well be forgotten
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