To My Class of 2003..

15 Years...

               

                A look back.. Do you ever wonder what happened to those people who were by your side for 4 years, walked the same halls, studied in the same class rooms, talked to eachother in the hall ways, played sports or even partied with them..

I got my 15 year Class Reunion paper in the mail, I had a feeling it would show up sooner or later, We never had a 5 year would have been a drunk fest anyways lets be honest. Or a 10 year .. But after it all they decided 15 years why not come back to the halls you once walked, see the faces of the People "You used to know" and tell them about your life Now.

I thought long and hard and came to the conclusion that Nahhh no thanks. Im 34 now, seeing the People I used to know, see if they turned into bigger Idiots,Snobs or just deal with people I just dont want to. The ones I see the ones who have been by my side for almost 20 years like Ashley DeRycke (Coontz), Casandra Pegram (Swearingen) Kim Heene (Currier) .

Sure have I lost touch with ones I wish I never did, would seeing my best guy friend (back then ) Ben Smith be different after all these years, would meeting his wife be better then being just a memory I look back on? would getting to See Andy Ebert and finally meeting his wife be nice, all the above yes, Some friendships are ment to last the toughest of times, some fall through the Cracks, some just dont last.


I Never look back and wonder if my life now, is what I wanted 15 years ago when I was hugging my friends goodbye and hoping and praying all I can do was pack up and leave.
Do I want the Husband.. The kids.. Of Course but am I going to be looked at different now, going there and seeing people who Judged me then Judge me NOW no Way..They Never got to put me down then and Years later I can look at alot of them and say I'm better then you ever thought possible.

I've dealt with more pain , over the past 15 years,then those people I used to walk the hallways with, I'm not that Girl anymore, Sure would I like to show them that.. Girl
That Short hair, sport playing,Tough Girl,who never thought she would go to College ..Did that and More..
-I Moved away
- I Graduated College ..Culinary Arts
- I had my own apt (2)
- Moved back to Illinois
- Moved into my house that I well own sooner rather then later
I may not have the Fancy House, the Husband or the kids but I'm still Me for all that I have done and accomplished I can say that with ease.

15 Years..
In the past 15 years I can sit here, look back and say My best friend has been gone for 14, her son is in Highschool now, she should be here celebrating our 15 years especially since she worked so hard to graduate, to move on with her life after those Halls..But a tragic accident happened, and I no longer get to share those moments with her, Live the life we always said we would have,, Still be her Best Friend..

Abby Dana was our Classmate, she was taken way To soon,.. I hate to look at us now and wonder who else is gone so Soon..

15 Years ago we all sat in the auditorium, laughing at our friends around us, Not listening to anything we were suppose to be doing, wondering when that Bell would Ring so we could get on with it.. So we could sit in our Senior Assembly ..:Listen to the jokes they would tell the songs that would play, and watch the video of our Incredible 4 Years ..Watch as the Picture slide would go by, and cry as we said our goodbyes to the ones we knew would never see again. Hug the ones were sure would always be by our side always, make promises to stay friends no matter where we went from there,Say our Final Goodbyes.. and our Last I love you's to the best friends you had for the past 4 Years, and wonder if anything would ever change..

As I sit here and Ponder 15 YEARS  has went by, I think wow where did that time go, the other part of me says, Maybe Ill go after work if anyone is still around, the other part of me says not much has changed,, those people you haven't hung out with, the ones you said you would never not be friends with well there all still there where I left them, They all have there Own lives now, and Hopefully for the past 15 Years they have done some Growing up..

So to My Fellow Classmates of 2003 (I haven't said that in awhile lol)

Happy 15 Years

We can Happily and Proudly say 15 Years later,where here Cheers !