The Loss of a great friend

Abby Michelle Dana

5 Years ago On April 22,2004 I lost my childhood friend to a car accident.It hurts to remember how she left us,but I want to share her story..of my life with my best friend.

At the age of 2 I met a baby,who for 18 years was my best friend.Our Mothers have been friends since childhood,and at a early age my mothers best friend lost her father.It seemed though life was hard Jamee found it easier when she was surrounded by her family and friends Years later after two other children(Allison and Ashley) Jamee and her husband Kirk had there youngest ..My Best friend Abby. Abby and I got in more trouble then you could think of,we'd go roller blading down her hill by her house and fall and get stuck in the rain,we played Marco polo in her swimming pool,& we gossiped about all the cute boys we glanced are ways.We both grew up in the same town,though we went to Two different grade schools and Jr. Highs.I went to a catholic grade school and Jr high she went to public school. Two different people who couldn't of known more about each other .Finally high school came we were as close as sister,we fought sure..But we made up,we were two girls who had rough lives,she hadn't known her grandfather and mind had been through a life and death surgery.Through the rough times we remained friends.Then are Jr. Year in High school a nasty rumor about Abby was going around school a girl who disliked me,told Abby I spread the rumor,At first I thought Abby would never believe her.But a year went by,My best friend and sister became just another person in the school hallway.

Finally came the day where she began saying hello to me again.It was our senior year and she was pregnant,a happy mother to be she showed her belly to anyone who would look her way.(She told me,we'd have kids just like are mothers,just a few years apart,(as I am 2 years older then her)She ended up graduating early from high school,I finished out the year and

tried to keep in touch.She was a proud mother,and a proud daughter.She quit her drinking and partying for a few months,but she missed it,we went to a few parties and would drive home,Never to think.Then a month after high school I told her I was moving,told her I was scared.I was moving to Vegas..She said to me "were not sister Heather by blood but that's only because god needed to separate us."I told her Id miss her terribly and I would miss seeing her everyday and something Id miss was watching her raise her little baby boy.Who is spitting image from temper to looks like his mom.

Then the fatal day,A day I'd never forget..April 22,2004. I was frightened by the sound of my telephone ringing,I awoke to answer to see I was to late..As I sat up in my bed,To listen to my voice mail my friend Desitny-said She had something huge to tell me,I thought to myself..Oh this could wait,But a weird feeling came over my body as I sat there thinking,what was going on back at home.As I called her back she told me to prepare my heart for the wost.Abby had been killed in a car accident earlier that morning a block away from her home. I told Destiny..She was crazy,I said Ill prove it Ill call Abby,shes still alive.It took time to sink in that my best friend was no longer here on earth.I called my mother at work crying non-stop,Finally I sobbed out what's going on,she told me the worst had happened,it was the truth,Abby wasn't there anymore..I finished getting ready for class in disbelief that I as 1,700 miles away and my best friend needed me.I didn't get to return home for the funeral(as I was in College)Though I know Abby forgave me for not being there,It still hurt.A month and half later I was able to make my way back home.The last month and half had been a living nightmare,finally the truth hit me,I drove to her home where she grew up.Her son Drake ran up to me as if he knew me,Hugged me and said hi Heather..he hugged me and I cried,I tried to walk away cause I didn't want to scare him,but he just hugged me..(this is him now at the age of 6)

Then Abby's mom Jamee came up to me and hugged me and said everything is going to be OK Heather..and its OK to cry,I told her I loved her,and that I didn't want to make her sadder then she already was,so we walked around.There I found statues of Angels and as I walked inside down to her old bedroom..Empty.Once filled with childhood memories and pictures,Now empty.I told her parents and two sisters they would always be a Big part of my life.As I started to walk a way a gust of wind picked up..I felt as if she was standing next to me..With tears filled in my eyes I looked back at the house she lived in as if it were my own,I recalled the swimming pool,the trampoline,so many late night chats and sleepovers on the back porch..But that was all gone.I then left and found myself on the hill we once played on,but now I just cry about how she could left so fast and so soon.As I left to visit her son Drake.By looking at him it reminded me of what she had said a few months back.."we have to raise our kids together,Just like Our Mothers..So get Busy."

5 years ago in April I lost my Best Friend,My sister and classmate.She excepted me for me.I love her and I miss her more and more every day.

Abby All I want you to know is that you re truly on of a kind I wont ever forget you in my heart you well always stay.Forever my Best Friend,and sister..and Guardian Angel.

Here is a poem I wrote for her back in 3/1/2007

"My Guardian Angel and Best Friend"

I awoke from a deep sleep thought maybe I was dreaming,but I wasn't quite sure.You stood there,as an angel from above.You told me that Id be OK and that I could make it.I was the tough one you said.I started to cry,knowing deep down I had to of been dreaming.As I wiped away my tears you asked me to remember the person I was and to be that person again.I looked up to you and said I couldn't remember who that person was anymore,I was worn out with life I asked you to come back so you could live a life you deserved and I could take your place,because I was ready to give up 2 1/2 years ago when you left us on earth my best Friend and my sister you had been for 18 years when you died in that car accident I was there and along with you my best Friend I died to.When you came to me that night I wanted you to still be alive when I woke up but I knew the truth you told me I'd make it through all the pain and suffering that I had been dealing with the last few years.I said it hurt so much and that i need you so you decided to tell me that no matter what you'd always be there,always have my back always be my best friend.But I cried I knew the truth you were in heaven and i was stuck in hell on earth you told me as much as I thought we could trade places you said I was chosen to still live my life because it wasn't my turn to go.I cried again.You hugged me and said what happened to the best friend I grew up with the one that always made me laugh,I said on April 22,2004 she died in that car accident along side you.Then I saw a tear come down her face,you said I need you to be Strong and just remember what we used to say,well see each other again no matter what.Then before I knew it she was gone again.I woke up and felt like I had to remember who I used to be,and as I stared at her picture I smiled..NO more tears I said Ill see you again..No matter what..