Today 6 months ago I lost someone who made my heart skip a beat,A man I have unconditionally loved since High school.We went our separate ways through the years, but he was always in the back of my mind,When he contacted me about 5 or 6 years ago he told me he was in the Army and he was back in K-town.We would talk for hours of stories of 
are lives and of our pasts..He teased me constantly about how big of a crush I had on him.But who would blame me,those baby blue eyes and the smile that made you weak in the knees.
are lives and of our pasts..He teased me constantly about how big of a crush I had on him.But who would blame me,those baby blue eyes and the smile that made you weak in the knees.But 6 months ago today..February 24,2009 I got a text message from my friend Cassie asking me if I heard what had happened to Schuyler :( As soon as I saw the sad face and I saw his name I crumbled,I was scared so I asked what what is it..she said he's in Heaven. I couldn't believe it I talked to him 2 days ago,and he never answer
ed me this morning on yahoo messenger,we talked almost every night,I should of known something was wrong.I called my dad crying hysterically,unable to stop and unable to utter out the words dad..So when my dad answered I was crying he said Heather...Heather...I said ya.He said who told you.I lost it more,It was true so dad said Heather who told you,I wanted to wait tell tomorrow to tell you so you wouldn't have this over your head at work.But I somehow I got up and dressed for work and drove to work.In a daze the whole way,not really knowing how I got there,I sat in the office my face all red my eyes blood shot from the crying.I sat there,and
my Food and Beverage assistant manager came in,she said Heather whats wrong I told her..She cried with me,and called my Assistant Chef,she told him and I just sat there dazed and confused and scared. Unable to put this in to reality,because it was the worse reality I had gotten..
My Chef said come on Scobby lets walk so we went for a walk I didn't say a word I just
followed he said I think maybe you should go home,to you apt,and deal with this and cry and get it out I think you ll be better off that way.I shook my Head.I left 2 days off and I was back,still not all the talk
ative,In some ways I really didn't feel I was there at all.I felt lost,and I wasn't thinking clearly,if at all. Life was totally random,I never thought Id lose someone else I loved,For months I was Mad at God,Mad at the world,I didnt want to lose him,I didnt know how to feel..I hated hurting,My heart was breaking and all I could do was cry...I may never be me again,Because a big chunk of me is missing,My heart is still breaking and Im not sure I'll ever be the same..But Ill never forget the man I loved,my friend,My hero,My soldier.
ed me this morning on yahoo messenger,we talked almost every night,I should of known something was wrong.I called my dad crying hysterically,unable to stop and unable to utter out the words dad..So when my dad answered I was crying he said Heather...Heather...I said ya.He said who told you.I lost it more,It was true so dad said Heather who told you,I wanted to wait tell tomorrow to tell you so you wouldn't have this over your head at work.But I somehow I got up and dressed for work and drove to work.In a daze the whole way,not really knowing how I got there,I sat in the office my face all red my eyes blood shot from the crying.I sat there,and
my Food and Beverage assistant manager came in,she said Heather whats wrong I told her..She cried with me,and called my Assistant Chef,she told him and I just sat there dazed and confused and scared. Unable to put this in to reality,because it was the worse reality I had gotten..My Chef said come on Scobby lets walk so we went for a walk I didn't say a word I just
followed he said I think maybe you should go home,to you apt,and deal with this and cry and get it out I think you ll be better off that way.I shook my Head.I left 2 days off and I was back,still not all the talk
ative,In some ways I really didn't feel I was there at all.I felt lost,and I wasn't thinking clearly,if at all. Life was totally random,I never thought Id lose someone else I loved,For months I was Mad at God,Mad at the world,I didnt want to lose him,I didnt know how to feel..I hated hurting,My heart was breaking and all I could do was cry...I may never be me again,Because a big chunk of me is missing,My heart is still breaking and Im not sure I'll ever be the same..But Ill never forget the man I loved,my friend,My hero,My soldier.So here I am again 6m later remembering my fallen Friend,crush,and round about great guy,and a soldier and especially a Hero
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.I well never forget this day,or the week I went home to say my goodbyes and pay my respects.I love you Schuyler,Always have,Always Well.I'm so happy I knew you,I'm so glad you were in my life,I well Never 
forget the memories,Threw the tears I well cry,and have cried and the smiles we shared not a moment with you well I ever forget.I love you and I'm so glad I told you.Love Always<3>
forget the memories,Threw the tears I well cry,and have cried and the smiles we shared not a moment with you well I ever forget.I love you and I'm so glad I told you.Love Always<3>Never forgotten your the True American Hero..thank you,I Love you & Miss you <3
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