The Beggining of the Long road back

February Last year,everything in my life seemed unreal.

Just 4 months before on October 19,2008 I had lost my Grandpa John,at the time I did'nt know how to deal,I knew my grandpa John was sick,he had been for years.But my family and I still needed him here on earth.I still needed him,he was the grandpa that spoiled us,the grandpa that teased us and the Grandpa that when we fell would comfort us. He was a AWESOME Grandpa,so when I talked to Schuyler after everything happened that day,he told me Heather..Its ok you have to be strong for him,so Id ask about him and his life,he never said much about the bs that was going on over there,but I knew it was crazy,I knew he wanted to complain too and some days he did, I worked graveyard at the time,so we talked via my cell phone on yahoo messenger and every time my phone buzzed I knew It was him. We talked practically all through the night(as it was day there )He told me about his plans for when going back home,and his future. He hadn't yet figured out but we had a plan.,.A plan that for some reason God decided wasn't in the cards for us.

Schuyler and I were close,I told him so much because he listened as I did for him,he once told me when he was home from the first tour that I was the only one that was his friend and loved him that never asked about killing people over there,and so I told him,Its because I just don't have a reason to know,but if you want to tell me I well listen. I miss seeing his face on the computer screen when id get home,he would always ding me and tell me buzz buzz until it drove me nutty! he loved teasing me. I would complain to him about my life,and how boring it was for someone as young as I am,then he said to me Heather I never told you this because I don't want you to think Ur dad is Hott or anything but you look alot like your dad and more and more you sure do sound like him.I was dumb founded we had went to talking about how boring life was and I was doing the complaing and then he says that I stared at him through the screen and he laughed and said WHAT its true :)

God how I miss that boys crazy sometimes absolutely nutty comments!

Its been almost a year..This month was the month that changed my life,and so many others life's forever.

I had went from talking to Schuyler everyday to,only getting to stare at pictures of the face,and the guy I loved and missed so much.

Today he would of been 26,last year we were teasing each other on how old we were getting,and what we were really doing with our life.I miss those talks and him so very much..Happy Birthday my dear friend,I love you,I miss you..everything about you its unreal how just a year your life can change so much..I LOVE YOU SCHUYLER ALWAYS HAVE ALWAYS WILL...FOREVER

~Heather~