If I never get the chance to say it..Here it is before you go Into this War..

About 7 years ago I moved to Las Vegas,Nevada a month and half after I graduated. I remember my last few days like it was yesterday.It was Summer,June 2003, My baby sister had a softball game so we were all at the park. I had seen alot of my friends and family there,Then my Best Guy friend Benjamin,came up to me and asked me if I wanted to go with him to Burger King to get a bite to eat and then we would come back. I told him I was gonna stay here and then for some reason (like most times wed argue ) we got into a fight(don't recall what that was about) I told him if he didn't want to stay and hang with me and he'd rather go drive around town on my last night in Kewanee then go ahead leave..He left, about a half hour later I got a voicemail from my best friend Danielle,my phone hadn't rang it went straight to voice mail and it said Urgent My heart stopped,what happened and where is Ben at..She said Heather I'm by Burger king and Walmart Ben's been in a accident someone ran a red light,and his truck was upside down. I got hysterical and had my mom listen to it,she looked at me..Danielle hadn't said if he was ok or not my heart had stopped beating we had just got in a huge fight and he left angry oh my god was all I could think...I ran to his older sister and told her what I had heard she was the umpire that night at the softball game,she took off running across the field, and I was digging in my purse wondering why I couldn't find my car keys by the time I had found them his sister was there she YELLED HEATHER GET IN NOW.. I ran to her car jumped in and I swear she drove about 90 mph all the way there..Afraid for my own life but afraid of what happened to Benjamin.We got there and there was his upside down Truck,ambulance and a fire truck and a couple cop cars,then there was Ben standing tall like nothing happened..He ran to his sister and hugged her,and then he came to me..I'm so sorry Heather,and I cried..I'm sorry too.
He gave me his class ring that night,it would be a year later I would see him and give him his stuff back. That night made me realize how much I would miss him if he was gone.I thought he felt the same.
A year after living here in Vegas I got a call from him quite a bit. He told me he was going to be a Marnie,I was proud of him and knew it would only bring him Good things. He deserved the best.
A few months later he met a girl who would later become his wife,and I would never hear or see from him again.
But about a week ago I got the news he's going to be going to Afghanistan in May or June of 2010. I cried..I had lost my best guy friend 7 years ago but he's always been there..Now what would happened if he never came back..I knew from past experience losing someone I would never forgive myself for not being the bigger person. I wasn't going to lose another friend and not tell them how sorry I was for losing touch,r how proud I was of them I had let my friendship with Abby fade away into the distance,and then I lost her without being able to make things right again I wasn't going to let that happened with Benjamin. We had been through to much I only stayed away because I felt it was the right thing to do..But now I want him to know how proud of him I am,and after losing Schuyler to this war how important it is to come back safely and remember that he is and well always be a Hero..He is from the class of 2003 and we do have some Hero's I know and Love ...