Sure I've been down this road before, I've already lost one grandpa so not having you at a holiday was different.But This year was the first time i've ever had to say This was my first holiday with out my grandpa's...
I sat at the table that once was my great uncle Sonny's and Aunt Lou's, and looked around the table..so many empty seats.. One grandma was away in AZ with her sister , and the other one was with her daughter in Iowa, where we should have been especially since it was our first holiday without you.But who was i to tell dad that we should be there and not alone.. I couldn't leave them stranded on a holiday especially since I was going to help mom do the cooking.I mean really what would have been the point of me moving back home and not celebrating a holiday with them,..
Even though this holiday didn't go as it had in the past, or even the best holiday we've ever had I still missed the ones I've lost along the way.
Today I stopped in the store , to pick up a few things Deodorant, and creamer two very important morning essentials two very separate necessities haha,..two things I just cant start my day without.
I stood behind a man who had to be in his late 80's as he paid for his gift card, waiting to sign his check, with no wife standing next to him , no kids or grandkids pushing him to hurry up, I thought of my grandpas.. There were very few times in my life that i recall standing with my grandfathers in the stores, but then I thought of all the things they did for me, the small things they did for me.. I may not recall all of my memories with them but I find myself jealous of the people surrounded by me that still have there grandfathers in there lives. I stood there patiently and quietly and just smiled as I starred at this sweet old man as he walked away I felt my heart grow a little bigger remembering just how precious life really is, how much time you miss, and all the time growing up you think of leaving your family home, of venturing out on your own, to come back to the small town you grew up in , and all while trying to make a name for yourself and get back on your feet you work so much you exhaust yourself and every once in a while you remember you cant take it with you ..So take the time to call your family, your loved ones your friends and spend time with them even if its just a five minute conversation on the phone or a half hour visit.. Make it count and remember there not around forever and neither are you, No ever knows when there time is up..
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