One year has already passed by..Miss you papa

One year has passed by,*10-19-08* I cant believe how the time has flew by,everyone tells me that it gets easier as the years go by some have even said that the days get easier,but everyday I think of how fast time has seem to fly by,where does the time go?




One day you were here,giving me hugs and telling me not to sit on Ur knee so I wouldn't break it,and we would laugh..the next minute I'm in Las Vegas and I get a call from grandma and you and your saying I miss you and love you baby.The next night I get a call from my dad saying you were no longer with us.


I remember that day but after that for a few months things were pretty cloudy.I never thought that life would be this hard..I didn't know if Id ever go back to being the Hedo arie you once used to call me.I walked around in clouds and thinking of all the things you ll never get to see or do again.Then I thought about what your defiantly doing up in heaven(Parting with a Milwaukee beer in your hand and enjoying watching over us)

When I went home in June 2009 I could barely go in your house(The house you and your brothers built with your own hands),or be around your chair you loved,I didn't want things to have been changed I wanted you to be around I needed you to be there.Our Family needs you to be HERE. Grandma needs you...Its not fair that god got to chose it was your time go,Because I never got to say goodbye or that I love you so much papa...

For months I was angry,I screamed at the Sky's believing that it was God's fault,that he is the one that made me feel this loss..this pain.I wasn't ready to have you leave..Its not fair,I miss you being here..I miss you teasing me about sitting on your lap,or taking your false teeth out and scaring the crap out of me with them...I miss you papa...
People that say Time heals all wounds... But they never lost a grandpa like you.

It just doest seem possible that it has been a year ...A Year ALREADY..where does the time go?

I remember going home,I remember having to say my goodbye's I remember how hard it was for me to walk up there,and I remember trying to be the strong one for my mom.

I miss you everyday and every second of that day your always on my mind..I know now that it was your turn to go,and I'm not mad at god anymore I understand he wanted someone as special as you.

I'll NEVER ever forget you I love you always.

Your Oldest Grandchild(and first Granddaughter Hedo arie)