Losing Someone..

Every moment someone around the world loses someone, we all know pain, we've went through the hurt, the loss of losing the one you love the most.

I had lost family members but it was there time, but..
My first huge loss was my Best Friend she got killed in a car accident , I was angry at the world, I was angry at god how could he take someone so young away from me from her family, she just had a baby boy , how could he take her out of her sons life. I didn't know it at the time but I went through the stages of grief of depression of the pain of losing my best friend.

I could yell at the world and for most part I did, I hated mostly everyone I came in contact with , because they were still breathing and she wasn't.

I was angry at god because he took someone so young, so loved and he just took her life.
But as the time went on I still questioned his move, why did he take her, why her why someone so young, But I never got the answers , he never told me why and I still to this day await that answer why take someone who had just really begun her life, her life as a mother, as a daughter as a friend. As my best friend.
 I was angry at myself because I never fixed our friendship before she was taken, I was angry because I was to stubborn , I was angry because I wouldn't get that chance again . I was angry because it wasn't me.
I yelled at god and at myself for a long time, its not that I wanted to die, but she had more to live for then I did, all I was doing was going to college she had a life to build a baby boy to raise. They needed her more.

Every moment someone loses someone weather they are old or young, and you always feel the pain the hurt, you see the pain in there eyes the loss of there love one , People say time heals your wounds, But its not true there still there, they well always be there, you cant forget what you lost, nor would you want to, You may stop crying and only shed a tear once in awhile, You may even start to smile but that doesn't mean you forgot about the one you lost. Just the opposite actually, 

The pain of losing someone is always there, The loss well always hurt, you well never forget them, they might not be your first thought everyday , But they are there, in your heart, forever..