December 20...today

Today I turned 33

My Mom told me the story about how she went to bed the night of the 19th, and woke up feeling like she wet the bed, ( I said well that's gross lol) she said ya I thought so to,
she said I recall saying my water broke and dad said well don't just lie there get up, lol
she said it was freezing cold that night, snow on the ground , and I was coming a month early.. I was suppose to be born in January.

8 hours or so after her water broke, I was welcomed into this world at 6:46 am December 20,1983.
and back then the mother and baby stayed in the hospital I was brought home on Christmas Eve in a stocking that was way to big for me, but I was there Christmas gift.. The best one she said they ever got.

Never thought I would be where I am today, at 33.

So much in my life happened after I graduated from High School in 2003, I went to live in Las Vegas, and started a life out there, and my career .
I went to college and graduated with a Culinary associates degree.
 I got to know two of my uncles who left when I as just a youngin, and I got to learn from a lot from chefs I worked with. I met some of the best people and made some of the best and long time friendships. I don't regret that part of my life or any for that matter at all.

33..

But today December 20,2016 I turned 33..
Im home now, buying my first home, new job, meeting more people, new sets of friends. Life has changed so much in the years. Some good some not..


Now its a day before I turn 35... dec 19,2018
 How is that even possible? i like my mom didnt think Id make it to my late thirties because of the life I was leading as a teenager and the recklessness I did, the stupid shit I did. Of Course I don't regret it that would mean I would regret my life.
When I lived in Vegas there was alot of work and whole lot of partying especially once I started going to the clubs it was all i knew for quite some time.
Its funny now You wouldn't catch me in one unless its for a bachelorette party or bachelor party or something lol.
Last time I was in a club it was for Pio and Williams wedding party, and it was enough fun that I can recall it all and still say I had TOO Much to drink that the next day I spent a good portion of it in my bed at the casino hotel lol, and in the dark..

 what 34 looks like on me ..

So what do I do the day before I turn 35? I workout a little harder, and then I go to work.. I do what I always do. Mom says this is a big one, I wish I could say at 35 I was married and had a kid or one on the way, But life hasn't turned out that way for me. Not sure it ever well and that makes me sad, because Ive done all I wanted in my goal set I graduated from High School 2003, I went to college and graduated in 2005 ( I believe lol) ,with a associates degree in Culinary Arts.
I moved away and then I moved back home, I've bought a home, and well own in 2 years.
But No man in my life.. no kids.. that's the disappointing thing about turning 35 I don't have much time left..
But for now Ill work on me.. and if love ever comes my way again, I hope I get it right one day.

Atleast I can I made it to 35,happy with myself and my life. Sure I want the husband,the kid,a pet, a bigger house, a garage, a bigger kitchen .. etc but I'm happy with what life I have built..
Maybe one day I'll get to be happy with a guy I've had my eye on for the past 4 years, whos my friend..Before he decides I'm not good enough for him.. I know that sounds bad but I can see him and me together, but I also think he wouldn't chose me, I cant even get him alone for longer then 5 minutes,so.. It just seems that way to me.
Until he decides to change it with me,or not Ill still be living my LIFE MY WAY..,