A heart that Never has healed,broken again..

                                                  You can't re break a already broken heart. Some time ago my heart shattered into a billion pieces, and it hasn't ever been whole since. About 7 years ago it broke, but the past couple years I've been trying to build my heart back up again, but Now It feels shattered again.

 You love another, someone I thought was like a sister to you, someone I didn't think would be in the running for your heart but I was wrong. I never saw this coming, I thought we were friends, and that maybe one day we could be more, there was always a attraction but I guess I was wrong, maybe its me , maybe you don't find me attractive, maybe I'm not the kind of girl you want to be with in the end. I haven't let myself get this way in Years, because I'm tired of failing.

I don't need you to build me up, I love who I am, But I wont lie I did want you to Love me. I have strong feelings for you and I thought it was a two way street again.. Im wrong..
Letting myself get this way again, has brought out a jealous side of me that I haven't had in years, and I'm sorry for that. 

                        I want to be the friend you need, the friend you want , but all I'm doing is screaming inside..

                                             Maybe one day Ill be okay with just being friends, and I'm working on that part of me. But its hard you know, when you call, when you tell me I'm the only one that well listen and can talk to. your best friend is suppose to be the one that you marry, the one who later in life you can talk to and it just not be about the looks, its about the comfort, the life your supposed to have .

                                           You tell me nothing well change between us our friendship well stay in tact and a part of me wants to believe it since you promised me, but things well change, they well never be the same.You can tell me nothing well change and our frienship well stay the way it is now, but It won't. I've been down this road before, I Know how it is when my friend gets married, I lost my best friend then and I'm about to lose another, this is why I stay to myself I don't get myself wrapped up in being to close to anyone,because my heart just cant take it anymore. 

                     I know how this story ends..and I'm slowly starting to let myself go..
My heart well always have a place for you in it...I'm truly happy for you my Friend