The Truth is Ive ....Changed

The truth is , I've changed

Four years after Ive moved back home and so much in my life has changed, Ive had two jobs since I've been back in town, and the last one has been the longest. Its time for another change though..

I'm 32 now , when I moved home I was 28 .. So much of me has grown up Ive went from my parents home, to Vegas apt, a house with friends and then back to my parents home and then to a apartment , then into a home I would rent and later buy.


In the past four years,I've visited Vegas once, for a Friends wedding, as Much as I miss my family and friends I left behind , I wouldn't have it any other way.This is My Home..

Im still single, and in many ways, that well probly never change.As much as I want a husband and a child.Im not sure it well ever be in the cards for me, I once had it all planned had the man, and then it was all taken away from me in a blink of an eye, I had nothing, Not him, nothing.
I like to think now that the friendships I've built could one day build to more, But I wont get my hopes up, I wont let myself feel that type of pain, Not again.

When I went back to Vegas, I contemplated going and seeing my Ex , when I thought of running into him my heart raced and I felt sick. We had a pretty complicated 5 years on and off relationship, and we ended on a good note, but a part of me wanted to see if I saw him if my feelings were still there, or where they finally gone..  I never got that chance and it was okay with me, it was for the best I know it. I'm happier now without him and I know it wasn't him I was meant for.

The truth is after all the heartache,I've worked through and the pain of losing important people in my life,I've truly changed.From the moment I looked in the mirror seven years ago to the woman I see standing in front of the Mirror now, I've changed.

I've recently opened up to a Friend , told him some obstacles I've faced, and some of what I've went through.. Sure everyone loses someone, sure everyone falls out of Love, and sure someone you once thought you would spend the rest of your life with can be gone in a blink of an eye,. 

Changing isn't always a bad thing, or a good thing, But you have to factor in the things in your life, the good the bad the Ugly.. The happy,the pain ,and the sad.
Once in awhile you can look around , maybe a small part of you hasn't changed, maybe a small part of the old you is still out there. If that's the case, hold on to that part of you no matter how small. 


The Truth is I've Changed..